To be honest this might detour many from sending me an email asking if I wanted a job. I have received a few but haven’t responded. I wanted to explain why via this cover letter that isn’t going to be very professional.

It’s been many years since I’ve worked because many reasons. I worked great at many call centers throughout the years, but with many issues. I’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar, ADHD, and OCD. I have to rock all the time if my job consists of sitting, if I don’t I’m not productive. I was let go from my last job because of these mental issues, which are now handled with medication. I was going to college in hopes to learn new things, but in most part to use some financial aid to pay the bills. I currently don’t attend due to reaching my max of borrowing. During this time, my writing has gotten better. In this, I mean I was working on a Novel that I self-published, but didn’t get an editor. Therefore, it hasn’t done well. I thought that my future would be this, but then I found screen writing and comic books. I started my own business to promote my writing and the comic book that a friend and I got done based on my self-publish novel. This again hasn’t taken off, but has had more success than my novel.

So, I come back to why I’m writing this. It’s been a long time, and now I don’t like dealing with customers, so if you think I’m good for a call center. I’m sorry I won’t do it yet, maybe in the future. I know that I can do stocking, freight, or cleaning. Really, if I don’t have to deal with many people, and I have a list of tasks, I will get them done, and I will be able to work on my own.

If you’re hiring for a position that works with me. I would love to be a part of your business and team.

Thank you!

Forrest L. Rawls

Non Professional Cover Letter

I?ve debated to type this up all weekend long and have lost some thoughts in the process, some good words and really excellent thoughts. I wish I didn?t have to speak what?s on my mind or type it. I just wished it would appear on paper for me. That?s a bit lazy I know, but recently that has been me.  I took a few minutes now to get distracted and not type again.

Well, here goes.

I?ve debated the last few days if I should continue to write my adaption of my book that made a short appearance as a comic book. Alternatively, to rewrite the whole book and edit it better this time and re self-publish it to help bring some income in. To keep the writing hopes and dreams alive. You may say why don?t you take a break and work for a few months at a normal day-to-day job. To help open up your mind to some new and cool ideas. I would love to do that, but I?m one whom if I stop I may not start again.

I?ve taken those moments of not having a coach or a mentor to think of maybe I need a writing partner. Nevertheless, I?m new to the world of screenwriting and I really don?t want anyone to take my thoughts or ideas and use them to gain money or fame. I want my name in the credits. And I know I?ve heard it from many videos that you could get paid millions for a script. I don?t care if you want to pay me millions I would take a teacher?s salary. Just to bring some money in and to start feeling that life isn?t just piling shit on me and never raining to clear some of it off.  I know my words aren?t unique and crisp and stylish, but I?m not that either.

I don?t know really what?s wrong with me. Am I in the giving up mood when I seriously haven?t given it a Huge try? I?ve tried to get a manager or agent or some kind of help in my writing. I?ve received great suggestions and tips, mostly from books and videos. But I need a supporter someone to root me on, that isn?t family. I need a boost. I don?t have the money to pay now, but it will; I will pay off.  Just take me under your wing wise and seasoned sir or madam.

When contemplating the thought of completely stopping writing all together. Or  to just give it ALL up those dreams, visions, and ideas. I awoke to a dream that was so vivid. I thought it was the true life I was living. But when it came to an end, I remembered it, and I was wide awake. So I got up and started to write it down. As I?m doing, so I say hey that?s a great idea only to lose the rest of the dream from my memory banks.

I know for those who believe in God and in destiny, I?m doing what God wants me to be doing right? Well, I?ve asked this before is that I don?t know. Things in my family have gotten worse financially, but don?t all families go through that? Well yes, but I?m so sick and tired of mine being the one that gets the short straw.  I recently watched a video by  Tyrese Gibson. He tells us that God made us to be extraordinary not ordinary or average. Not to be a drone or a robot and do what the guy/gal next to you is doing. Well, how can I not do what the next person is doing when the next person has made it to the level I want to be at and has the resources the friends the connections to take a thought and make it real. I?ve tried fund raising, Kickstarter, and screamed for help. But here I type my message of; I don?t know, and I don?t KNOW again.

I have so many things I want to do if I did have MONEY. Not just to make me and my family?s dreams come true, but to help my four-legged children and their distance relatives who don?t have homes of their own. I have these Ideas these thoughts, but I just write them down and show myself because there are no sounds in response by those whom aren?t my family.  And when they do come I hope I?m ready for them, and I?m not so down in the dumps that I say Fuck It All.

For those who have read my other writings and my comic book and read my book. Thank you! Even so, I would really like to hear from you not just that you purchased or read, but what you would to make it the thing that caches you off guard.

I know if you?ve read my past posts or anything I write. It?s always about me and wah wah. Cry baby this, cry baby that. I know I keep beating the pillow, and no feather fall. Nevertheless, until someone holds my hand or gives me a smack on my back as if I?m doing a good job, and I should keep doing it. I?m always going to contemplate should I stop writing and dreaming or should I keep pushing.

For God sake man, I turn 34 this year, and I?m still trying to get out unto the world. However, thank you Rachele Brooke Smith for recently favorited my last couple of tweets to you. But I?m a man who needs a bit more. I know I should be grateful she read them, but “Thanks. I’ll read it in time,? would be great too.

Thank you all who read my blabber and my pity party pants.

Last time I wrote about the Intelligence of Man, this time I?m going to write about things that happen in our lives, in most cases, the things that suck.

I know for those who believe in God people say that those, ?things that are bad that happen to us is the test of faith to see how sturdy we believe and how strong that faith is.? However, when things that happen that are good we thank God, and we say I guess my faith paid off. But for others they believe in the world or even God when bad things happen in the way they say it, ?must have happened for a reason. ? The reason in most cases is to again, test our faith. Other times it?s a trial of life and how we react and how we deal with things. Do we give up and commit suicide or do we fight through it and think that there is a plan for you in the world is by fait or by God? We all struggle day to day and say, ?why do bad things happen to good people?? Does that say we should murder people and good things will finally happen or is it saying that we as good people are full of awful luck or have small faith?

Bad things have come up in my life and well, my family?s life lately that has gotten all of us down and depressed. (No amount of sun will help us.) Are we a cursed family? Or is Satan out to destroy our lives so that we become ridden with evil ideas and intent? It all happened at once and hurts to know that if someone would help me; I could help those around me better. Nevertheless, they say to help yourself because no one will help you because they’re in need themselves or conceded in their ways. They are thinking of themselves and their lives and not giving a damn about anyone else.

Now when things go good for one or other people say don?t forget me or to forget the little people. I want to become successful. When I was younger, I wanted riches and fame, but now I see that I don?t need the approval of others or a fan base. I just need to do what I want, to do what I love to or least have some passion for. ?Some? is the key word, and ?some? is supposed to be committed and full of passion.

Even so, when you have crap happen to you and your family you think of only ?them? because not only are you all going through the similar thing you can count on family to be there for you no matter what. Or if your family has family issues, and you can?t depend on them, do you have someone else you can depend on? I know if I was still single I would have my friend who is my mother, but if she wasn?t here I would have no one. Nevertheless, God or luck whatever you believe in I found me a loving caring wife who gives a damn about me, and doesn?t give a damn of what other people think. She supports me in everything I do even when she knows what I?m doing is wrong. She is my rock yet she has hit me enough with her words that I have no clue why a ?sense? has not come to me.

I?ve stopped posting scriptures on Facebook because I post and never read what I posted, and few read my post on Facebook or twitter. Not even my blog! I at one time spent a week off Facebook, and no one cared were I was or how I was doing. When I read Facebook, it?s more of for entertainment and not anyone’s post because it?s either about nothing or its pictures of life that seems better than mine. Yeah so I might just be having a pity party, but we all do and we all contemplate things. So I?ve decided since no one gives a damn for how I?m doing except for family and a few friends very few. I think even though I?ve said it before is to get rid of my Facebook that has nothing to do with writing or entertainment that I care about. I know I?ve stopped following many fitness pages because who wants to see someone else lose weight or get cooking ideas when I don?t have the motivation nor the money to do anything that special.

So, if you want to be a friend and know how life is going, then become my Facebook friend on my other account. I think I need to spend more time on that one to keep writing and to keep moving. Even though I haven’t seen money or success with my writing yet I still need to work on it as if I am the next big thing, and I need to keep my fans happy. So, today I think I will get rid of my one Facebook and have those who want to keep an eye on my life and all my successes and failures to follow my other Facebook account or just follow The Legacy Comic page. If you don?t care, then don?t follow me on over.

I’ve been told lately due to my hate for people, and my uncontrollable (well I can control it; I just seem to be doing it a lot more) rocking that I have Autism or even Asperger. Some say I’m a lazy dreamer. One who dreams but doesn’t do the work. Yet, what am I? God knows, but he doesn’t come out and say what we will do and what we will be. I know I have great ideas and dreams of what I will do if things become real and money comes my way. However, since things haven’t happened with what I’ve already done, and I’ve seen no end to some troubles. I’ve given up and given in to do nothing more. Why? I don’t know why, nor do I know if I should even try anymore. I know that it is a lie because I’m slowly working on rewrite number 677 on a script I started 6 years ago. I just hope the timing will be right for when I get it done, and I feel it is final even after some script readers tell me yea or nay on it. Next, if no more work needs to be done, then I will send a letter out in hopes that someone likes it. If not It, but sees how well, I can write that they hire me for something else. I need to stop pouting and stop having a woe is me mentality and just get things done. Here’s to hoping, and to getting things done!

I’ve been thinking about my own intelligence. Or at least some people have questioned my intelligence. The questions raised are. Why can’t you work? Why can’t you think of doing nothing but making dreams come true when you aren’t fully committed to do the work? I don’t know why. I don’t know what in my own thought processes, I?ve left out the fact that bills take money to pay and why am I not motivated by that as much as I should.

I drive around thinking of man’s intelligence with the dumb asses not using blinkers pulling out in front of others and cell phones and other non-intelligent distractions. I think about my past and how I at one time I thought that my mom and dad were at fault for my faults because of genetics and inbreeding that somewhere down the line occurred, but what is it truly that makes one lack thought and reasoning? What did I not eat right when I was young? Where there too many chemicals in our food at that time, as in this, but way more?

Man’s intelligence given to us by God or is it true to the big bang, and we are a bunch of small-minded yet intelligent (for their size) apes? That commonsense is no longer needed, and we are on a crash course to stupidity taking hold of even the smartest of us?

Products in food and in the air are not healthy yet we crave these additions in a way that makes us idiots. I may rock while driving, but I’m awake alert and both hands are on the wheel to be pulled out of front of and then your speed is slow where I have to slam on my brakes. Is this a sign of our now lost intelligence? Less time to react because we lack the comprehension and commonsense? To not be one whom tries to do so many things at once behind a vehicle that is a killing object as to run with scissors is the same.

No we don’t always fall and land on them, but we do have a greater chance when we run and think we are in control. I’ve been plagued with thoughts and am I unethical or irrational to think that my intelligence is not of God or of a big bang? Am I thinking too hard in the way that most of us don’t think at all? We all have dreams and goals, and we all work, but do we truly need to take a break sit and think that our intellectual process needs time to rest or do we need to just keep the pace of a cheetah and feel that if don’t stop, then we won’t die, but if we do stop, does the world?

I think that many of us say we are intelligent in our own way, but can our way be the wrong way? I feel that commonsense is lost to the world of chemicals and the effects of creating products that we use to make ourselves look descent. Why can’t we only bathe and be fine with that why are there makeup and hair products? If you want to style your hair, just cut it, less work and fewer products needed. Your mind will be able to take the non-toxic intelligence that you’ve saved and which you can use that new process for good in the use of the world.

I hate over thinking things, but I hate to under think things. However, I sit here rocking (my autism people say) thinking, are my dreams being worked on as hard as I could and is my thought process and intelligence being used like it should for what it should be for the time it should. Or am I just trying to compensate for the intelligence lost to this world for man by man to come to an end of, who knows?

We post good news, we post bad news, we post pictures and where we’re at. We tell the world (unless private in our security settings) what we are doing and what we are eating. We Like others’ pictures or other posts that show up on our timelines. We seem to want others’ approvals or comments. On the other hand, in some cases to show that you’re living life like it should be, but there are those who ask questions or ask if you’ve heard what so or so said. Things are retold in real life, and questions are asked. It’s hard not to want to just keep it all to oneself, or to shove the good news in everyone’s face. But why? Many people have a better life than others do, and people have issues mental or physical. Why do we have to relay it to the world? Why do I have to see how someone?s days going or how their physical appearance is changing because of their diet and exercise? Why am I on Facebook now that the fad is just a well-used memory of connecting with others? I?ve decided since I?ve had issues getting chores done and thing accomplished that I will be not looking at Facebook anymore for a while so that I can make dreams actually real. I don?t need to know what?s going on in your life and really who wants to know what?s going on in my life. Mostly, no one does, because comments are very few and far between, and no messages from anyone. So, I will say good-bye for just a time and Twitter will be quiet too. Once I?ve completed a few things, then I will be back, but that might just be a while.

Check out my new script on Stage32 “A Heroes Journey” (http://www.stage32.com/profile/72111/Screenplay/A-Heroes-Journey) #stage32online

We all have fallen victim to laying our head down and thoughts flooding our minds. Most thoughts are really good. Yet we can’t get up due to our energy levels being zapped. However, we know that our good ideas will be gone by the time we wake up. I have had this happen to me the last few nights. I would pray to God that he would let me have my great thoughts back the next morning, and some would stick and some would not come back. I’m preparing to finally start back on a script i started last year its 47 pages and is a Faith based flick. I hope to finish it and then start the rewriting process. I hope many will read it and like it and i can get it out there so it can be turned into a great movie. I hope then I can get back into writing my comic book scripts into a full length graphic novel script then publish it on Amazon so that I can gain revenue so that I can keep writing and move on to other projects that have recently come back to light from 10 years ago.

I?ve seemed to have lost my will to write and to be productive. I used to be a good worker, now I feel I don?t do a thing. I used to love to write, but have had my months of my mind being in a desert. Now, I know what I need to be doing, but why can?t I start doing it. My mind wants to be entertained, but why can?t I make my own entertainment instead of watching it on my screen. Why can?t I do and not just say? I?ve fought with myself because I want to lose weight, and yet I can?t do it. I can say it fine. I need help, but it?s for me to do and no one else. Someone can help me get motivated and encourage me, but I have to do the work. Ugh! I? I..need help! Who will come forth and do so? Who really is a friend to me? Who really cares?

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